Letting Go

People keep telling me to let go,
To forget the past
And look forward to the future,
That it'd be best for me.
But they don't realize how hard letting go of the most important person in your life truly is.

Like letting go of
The way butterflies in my stomach flew,
And the way fireworks went off each time he and I kissed.
Or how my heart skipped a beat at the sight of him,
With his auburn hair and his gorgeous blue eyes.

Like letting go of
The memories of us that I played over and over in my mind,
Making me miss him even more with every recollection.
Or knowing how perfectly his fingers fit next to mine,
And the little squeeze of his hand that reminded me I wasn't alone.

Like letting go of
His laugh,
Like the sound of bells chiming so beautifully,
As we would both walk side by side,
Talking until our voices were hoarse.

Like letting go of
Always wishing he was next to me,
With his arms wraped tightly around my waist,
His soothing, calming voice
Lulling me to sleep.

Like letting go of
His glimmering eyes
And mesmerizing smile
That I miss more than anything,
Yet it always haunted me in my dreams.

Like letting go of
The constant flow of tears every night
Of missing him.
Or to stop wishing and hoping for the impossible,
Of wanting him back here with me.

Like letting go of
The memory of his proposal,
A memory that I was reminded of by the ring on my finger,
The ring that once promised me a happy life with my true love...
Before the accident.

I need to start living my life again,
To live in the present, and not my past,
To move on from the love of my life.
Because it's what he would've wanted...
It's what Mason would have wanted.